I'm starting January off with a positive attitude, keeping a smile on my face and my head screwed on tight to my shoulders. No more following the heart; the brain is a much more powerful tool that should be utilized to its full potential, something I'm trying to learn how to do. Like everything else, its easier said than done, especially since I'm about to go into week three of Bronchitis. Yep, I got it the day after new years, and so far it's only gotten worse every day. I've been trying to brush it off and just focus on everyday life, mind over matter right? My new philosophy on life has definitely helped with this, despite my body failing miserably on me. Lightbulb: maybe it's my first test of the year. Maybe, just maybe, this is the universe's way of presenting me with a new year challenge. And you know what, I'm gonna take it. I'm ready to take the year and whatever it may bring head on. Stay positive, stay focused, prioritize.
One thing I've learnt is that no goal can be reached unless motivated by a strong enough cause. I just recently got back from a month-long vacation back home to Malaysia, a nice break from reality especially considering it's been two years since I've been back. Seeing my family and friends, all my loved ones, had such a powerful effect on me. So many people do not readily see how important family/friends are in one's daily life, it's so easy to forget especially if you see them on a regular basis. But let me tell you, after two years of being without, the difference is earth-shattering. I feel like they brought life back to me, as dramatic as that sounds. People need to be reminded of what's important from time to time, what REALLY matters in life, on our most basic human level. The unconditional love one gets from family is something that cant be found anywhere else in the world, not from any substance or material pleasure. I have such a big family too, something that I'm so grateful for as I get double triple quadruple the love. That being said, I've set my loved ones in my mind's centerframe, the image of every single one of them always etched in the front of my brain, to motivate me. They are my reason for being and have taken the place of my ultimate motivation to do better and be better.
The one month I spent in Malaysia really opened my eyes up to a lot of things I had lost sight of, and all the memories I made while back at home are still fresh in mind, constant reminders of why I'm here and the plans I'm hoping to fulfill. It is going to be a short year, so I have a lot of work to do in little time. But I'm confident that I will get things moving soon, just gotta keep swimming and pick myself up whenever I stumble. New, great, positive things lay ahead.
....God, my newfound optimism frightens me sometimes. Don't worry though, it's still me. :) I have big plans for 2011 (bear in mind BIG is subjective), so I'm crossing my fingers and confidently striding into the new year with my head held high and peace signs crossed.
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